Sometimes I think there’s a hope, a chance, sometimes I think so, I do.
But then the words spill out of your mouth, and I watch your tongue dance the way you do.
And the words are sharp and grating, I can almost smell that expensive cologne
That you stole from the man your ex was dating, I can smell it through the phone
And you say these things about how you want me
But only in the way that you’ve always wanted me
Here, on the floor, on my knees, worshiping you like you are god
And I am always on my knees with you
And I don’t think it’s fair to
Invade my body, my temple
Unless you care to invade my soul
You only want what’s tangible
You want what’s under my clothes, but not what’s under my skin and bones
You remind me every time that we speak that we are no longer meant to be
I loved you once, I love you now, I’ll love you until the end of time
But I’ve learned to treat my soul better
Than you ever treated my body
And I will not accept the love I think I deserve anymore
I will accept the love that I know I am not worthy of
Someday someone will love me with ferocity, with fire, with every beat of their heart
And no I won’t deserve it.
I’m not good enough for that kind of love.
But it will be mine regardless
And you will grow up someday and wish that it was you that burned your fire into me
Instead of leaving me cold and blue
And I will not be sorry
Because I know that I will be free
Free of the tyranny that you imposed on me
My god, my love, my everything
Someday, you will be nothing.